Im huddled in a corner locked inside the bathroom crying, thinking what can i do to change this, or is it like the other times he said he was moving out, and why is she letting him leave! These are the thoughts that were running through my mind when my dad told me he was moving out for the third time.
He said he would be moving out and a few days later when he picked me up from school he showed me where he was planning on moving.
Soon after he moved out of state, i felt betrayed , for a long time i blamed my mom for his leaving.
A few years after i went to visit him and one day as i was cleaning i came across an album under the sofa… As i opened it i felt betrayed all over again, but this time by my father, there were pictures in there that explained pretty much everything, thats when i knew id been blaming the wrong person all this time.
What he did was unexcusable, but hes my father and i guess no matter how many times he lets me down he still is and i love him, im just sad that i found out the truth so late.
Now we dont have the relationship i wish we had , but thats ok i have come to terms with that.
My dad was a great father when we were kids though… when he was here.
I just hope that my husband does a better job at being a daddy for her.. not just for a little while but forever and a day.
